I am a middle-aged submissive man, single, and wanting to find a woman to devote myself to. I've been aware that I am submissive since before puberty. I have acted on this some, both before and after my long vanilla marriage. I've been to Pro-Dommes and I sampled the local BDSM scene. I had trememdously exciting experiences. But nothing approaching a relationship. And I've realized that I want to be in a loving, intimate, femdom relationship. I want to meet a woman whose company I enjoy, who inspires my devotion, and who uses erotic domination to train me to serve her whims.
A big dream, perhaps. I'm going to write about my attempts, the efforts of one subboy wannabe.
I decided to leave the BDSM scene for two reasons. First, it seemed to be mostly about S/M, where my interest is more in D/s. Oh, I'm a masochist, and can get turned on by pain. But really, I'm a service sub, and that's not particularly the way my local community tilted. Second, the community was rather small. People seemed to be mostly coupled, and I doubted there was going to be much opportunity to meet a woman I really felt compatible with. Where we felt that spark, that lively interest that could make a night on the town a wonderful adventure, with or without kink.
I'm thinking it might be more fruitful to find a woman I feel the chemistry with, get into a relationship with her, and try to introduce femdom into it. As advised by Elise Sutton, for instance. Anyway, that's my current program. I'm planning to update with reports on my efforts, whatever success or failure I have. I do wanna be a subboy, claimed and collared.
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